Did love marriage. But love someone else

Meri story shuru hoti hai college days se .. 12th k exam dene k baad i went to medical college which was at kolkata ..there i met a guy named rohit .. Just becoz it was a trend of college i had an affair with him.. It was okay in previous few months but later we had fights even on stupid issues.. Hardly koi din jata tha jab humari ladai na ho .. But we were together as we both have decide to get married unusual to other couples . I dont why but it was gng on . He used to hit him . Beat me lyk anything . But i tolerated everything . Woh shayad mere se pyar nhi karta tha . Uske liye bas mein thi saath movie jaane k liye , ghoomne k liye and for physical satisfaction . But usne mere dimag mein bas yeh bhar rakha tha ki ladaiyan to sab couple mein hoti hai aur shaadi ussi se karni chahiye jis se college mein affair rha ho. Sab galat ho rha tha but chalta rha . Fir mein intern karne k liye delhi aa gyi .. Waha mein mili ek ladke se jiska naam avinash tha .. Us se mil k mujhe pata chala ki pyar kya hota hai .. He loved me so much. Usne meri pasand na pasand har cheez ka dhayan rakha . Meri galti thi jo maine us se chupaya apne rohit k saath k affair ko ., aap mujhe selfish bol sakte hai . But mein apne ghar pe pehle hi rohit k baare mein baat kar chuki thi . Aur humari shaadi ki date fix ho chuki thi . But mein pyar karne lagi thi avinash se .. Ghar pe darte hui baat nhi ki ye soch k ghar waale bolenge ki tujhe to har doosre din kisi se pyar ho jata hai .. Aur waise bhi shayad woh avinash k liye nhi maante kyonki woh doosri caste ka tha . Na chahte hue rohit se shaadi kar li but mein pyar sirf avinash se karti hu . Shaadi hote hi agle din mera dimag kharab ho gya aur rohit ko maine sab bata diya apne relation k baare mein avinash k saath . Aur apne ghar aa gyi . Mere ghar waalo ko rohit ne bata diya sab . Apne gharwaalo ki daily gaaliyan sunti rhi aur wahi pe rehti rhi . Unko yeh bola ki thoda time chahiye avinash ko bhoolne k liye. Rohit ne avinash ka number liya mere ph se aur usse call kar k sab bata diya ki maine usse dhoka diya . Avinash se yeh baat bardast nhi hui aur usne mujhe bahut sunaya but maine bahut maafi maangi . bahut maafi k maan ne k baad usne mujhe maaf kar diya . Avinash se daily baat hoti thi . Woh bolta tha ki tu tension na le tujhe ek din saari tension se door le jaunga. Kuch dino k baad usne mere se ladne shuru kar diya . Usko humesha yeh shak rehta tha ki kahi rohit mere ghar pe to nhi hai . Ya mein us se milne to nhi gyi . Woh kisi bhi time bol deta ki landline se missed cal kar . Yeh dekhne k liye ki mein kaha hu. Ek din achanak ek choti si ladai k usne mere se baat karni band kar di. Aur mera number block kar diya . Mein usko ph karti rhi . Message karti rhi yeh sochti rhi ki pata nhi kya hua hai .. Kabhi apne bhai k number se cal ki kabhi papa k . Kabhi new sim khareede. But woh meri awaz sunte hi wahi number block kar deta tha . Daily 100s of call karti but koi reply nhi milta .. Diploma training k liye ek hospital mein gyi which was at uttranchal .waha se bhi daily usse ph karti rhi but usne reply nhi kiya. Ek din us hospital mein mujhe woh dikhai diya ,akele nhi apni biwi k saath .. Usko dekh k maine usko aawaz lagai . Usne mujhe dekha aur apni biwi se milwaya. Usko dekh k itni khushi mili thi dil ko ki samajh nhi aa rha tha ki us se mil k khushi k expression du yah uski biwi ko dekh k dukh k . I was blank . Umeed chod di thi saari . Finally i decided ki mein rohit k saath shift ho jaungi . Mein aur rohit ek saath rehne lage . But koi physical relation nhi tha humare beech kyonki mere dil mein abhi bhi avinash tha .. Ek din mere number pe message aaya avinash ka . It was a blank message . Jab maine woh message dekha i was shocked . I tried his number immediately . But mila nhi . It was blocked as usual . Again ek message aaya .. Kaise ho?. My hand were shivering and i replied ki aap kaise ho . Plz cal karo baat karni hai . Plz ek baar. Fir humari baat hui . He gave excuses like ki uske papa ne force kiya shaadi ko to karni padi .. Fir maine milne ki baat ki . He said theek hai . Hum shimla gaye for 2 days . I was very happy. Mujhe laga sab kuch mil gya hai mujhe. Shimla se aane k baad humri regular baat hone lagi ph pe . Fir ek din usne mujhe bola ki woh mujhe kuch batana chata hai . Usne bataya ki uski wife pregnant hai . Again one more shock . Dimag confused. Mujhe laga agar maine is baat pe ladai ki to yeh fir chord dega mujhe . Fir bhi maine dil ko samjhaya . Usne bola ki us se galti ho gyi . Maine usse maaf kar diya. Kuch din k baad mujhe ek message aaya . Ki call me asap. I called him aur mujhe pata chala ki woh papa ban gya hai. He was happy. Usko dekh k mujhe aisa laga ki jiske liye sabse zada kabhi mein important thi aaj koi aur ho gya shayad. Acha relation hi chal rha tha but pata nhi fir kya hone laga usne mujhe bola ki yeh relation nhi chalega zada din . Isko khatam kar dete hai . Usne bola ki yeh rishta galat hai . He again blocked me. Mein fir paglo ki tarah usse ph karti rhi but he didnt replied. Shayad usse apni biwi se pyar ho gya tha. Meine jis k liye apni poori zindagi kharab kar li uss ne mujhe phone kiya aur kaha ki woh mere se pyar nhi karta . aur mein ek prostitute type ki ladki hu . aur mein sirf sex k liye thi uske saath . his exact mesaage was (Tum ghatiya hi itni ho jo sirf time pass ho sab k liya.tum toh sirf sex karne aur jhuth bolne dhoka dene ki ho.pahle pata hota toh thukta b nai tum peJo tumne kiya tha uski saza itni asaan nai hai par tum pahle hi itni gandi ho ki apni izzat ka dar lagta hai ki pata nai kya bakwas karna shuru kar do tGet lost.i dont need u just need my familyU just need sex pyar nothing 4 u Agar tune ek msg ya phone aur kiya tari ma ko phone karuga aur police me tujhe duga kutiya aurat ,randi Tum ho rand ur r a sex worker Haram ki aulad sali randTujh jaisi randi ki toh woh b ni bachi sali rand .) Jo dhoka maine diya tha shaadi se pehle rohit k baare mein na bata k uske liye mein kini baar maafi maang chuki hu . Aur agar us dhoke ka itna fark pada tha to kabhi milna nhi chahiye tha avinash ko na hi mere se baat karni thi . Jab mein shaadi k baad aayi sab chord k tab yeh nhi pata tha ki jisko paane k liye yeh sab kar rhi hu woh mujhe yeh sab bolega. Agar sex ki bhooki hoti to aaj mera bhi ek bacha hota rohit se. Uske saath reh k bhi koi relation nhi rakha kabhi . Aur shayad kabhi nhi rakhungi. Aaj bhi bas yeh chahti hu ki avinash mere pas rahe . Mujhe pehle ki tarah pyar kare , uski yaadein jeene nhi deti .