Mera dard jo me kabhi nhi bhula sakti

hello frnds aj m apne baare m btaati hu or pyar m mile uss dukh dard ko jo m mar kar bhi kabhi nhi bhul sakti hu m ye chahti hu ap sab ye story ap sab firnds jarur padhe k mene kya pyar karke koi gunha kiya jo mujhe ye sjaa mili pyar m essa dard mila kisi pe itna vishvaash karke mujhe m ek essi ladki hu jo apne ghar m kabhi ladai jhagdo k alawa kabhi kuch nhi dekha mene m kabhi apne man ki baate kisi ko nahi kehti kabhi kisi se jyada baat nhi karti lekin m aj apne baare ma sab kuch btaana chahati hu apna dard ap sab s baatna chahti hu mene apne ghar m hamessa ladai jhagde dekhe h khussiya to kabhi dekhi hi nhi mere ghar m har pal ldaai jhagda hi apne ghar m dekha h mene har pal bas yhi chup rehkar soccti rehti ki kab bhagvaan mere ghar m sab kuch thik hoga bas har pal dil or dimaag m bas yhi baat mujhe paresaan karti rehti thi par sayad khusiyu ko to mere ghar or mujhse koi dusshmani h ladai jhagde hi har pal apne ghar m dekhti rehti hu yhi har pal dimaag m rehta h kabhi kisi s baat nhi karni kisi ko apne man ki baat nhi bolna apne hi dard ko apne dil m dbaaye rehti kabhi kisi s dosti nhi kikabhi kisi s na hi nabhi apne ghar s bahar nikli issi kaarn m bohot jyada bimaar rehne lagi apne ap ko hamesa akelaa mehsus karti thi or karti hu aj bhi m itni bimaar rehne lagi ki man karta k m marnaa chahti thi jine ki tamanna hi nhi hoti aj bhi man karta h k m mar jau to acha hoga lekin mar bhi nhi sakti thi issi presaani k kaarn m bohot jyada bimaar rehti thi 1 saal t! ak mera ilaaj chala or dwaaiya khai or ek din mujhe uss jgha uss hospital m jana pda jha meri zindagi badalne waali thi m pehli baar ptel nagar k raam manhor lohiya hospital m apne test karwane k liye kai dino tak lgaatar wha hospital m roj hume jana padta tha hospital m ek din m jab opd k bahar khdi thi jab kuch der baad m or meri mummy hum andar opd m chale gye opd k bahar hi mene unko or unhoneunhone mujhe dekha tha jesehi hum andar opd m gye wo bhi apne kaam k liye kisi or jgha chale gye kuch der k liye par m nhi jaanti thi k wo whi p kaam karte he m pyaar karne se darti thi kyuki mene jitno ko dekha he wo sab alag ho jaane pe rote he dukhi hote he issliye mene unhe dekh kar bhi andekha kar diya kyuki m nhi chahti thi ke jo sab k saath huaa wo mere saath bhi ho lekin bhagwaan ko to sayad yhi manjur tha 2 bje wo bhi whi p aa gye jha m opd m thi wo mere pass aakar beth gye or mujhse baat karne ki kosis ki suruaat m mere test k pepar dekhe phir mere baare m puchne lge mene apna naam to bta diya tha par jab wo mujhse jyada baat karne lage to mene mna kar diya tha unhe or m wha s uthkar apni mummy k pass aagai lekin wo wha bhi mere saamne aakar khde ho gye or mujhe dekhte rhe lekin mene apna muhh pher liya tha or wo phir gusse m wha se pta nhi kha chale gye phir hum bhi apne ghar aagye 5 bje phir humme dubaara jana tha do hafte k baad test karwane k liye hum phir gye wo din tarikh wo time aj bhibhi mujhe ache se yaad he or marte time tak yaad rhega 16/03/2009 ye din me unhe phir se whi p dekha or unhone mujhe dekha uss din jab m test karwake waapis opd k pass aai to mene unhe whi 2 bje k baad khda paaya jese ki wo mera hi intzaar kar rhe the jese jab mene unhe phir se unhe dekhkar bhi unhe pehle ki trha andekha kar diya or m jab jaane lagi test k liye to wo mera picha kiya or wo bohot der tak mera picha karte rhe jab mujhe dar lagne lga k ye meri mummy k saath jese hi test karwane ke liye dusri jgha jaane lagi to sayad unhe lga ke m apne ghar jaa rhi hu jab wo mera picha karne lge or mere bilkul pass aagye or ! apna pho ne numbar apne card p likha or mere saath saath chalte rhe mene apna picha chutane k liye wo card unke haath s leliya to wo bohot khush huye or waapas chale gye par mere man m bhi unke liye whi feeling thi jo unke man m mere liye thi par m keh na saki or wo phone no lekar apne ghar aagai phir mene jab kuch din baad unhe phone kiya to mere man m dar sa tha lekin jab mene unse baate ki to wo vese hi the jesa m apne man m shocti thi wo wese hi the m or wo roj baate karte the hum dono k dil m ek dusre k liye bohot pyar tha mene unhe apne ghar ke halat k bare m sab kuch btaya m unse apne man ki sari bate bta deti thi to mere man ko acha lagta tha unse baate karke m kab na jaane unse itna pyar karne lagi itna pyar karne lagi ki kab na jaane me or wo ek dusre ki jaan ban gye 2-4mahine tak roj subha saam raat ko hum dono baate karte wo mujhe roj milne k liye bolte lekin jab milne k liye jati to koi na koi rukawat ho jati to wo mujhse naraj ho jate or kehte k tum na hi mujhse pyar karti ho lekin m majbur thi ghar m halat hi kuch ese the k hum dono 2-3 mahine tak na mil sake or wo mujhse naraj the apni kasam di k agar nhi milne aai to m tum s kabhi baat nhi krunga mene unhe manane ki kossis ki par wo phone to uthate par mujhse bolte nhi phir mene kuch dino baad milne k liye kha to wo bohot khush huye or phir hum dono pehli baar m ateek se apni frnd k ghar k kuch dur ek park h hum wha mile hum dono park m bas ek gante k liye mile or ek dusre ko dekhte rhe baate ki ateek n mujhse pucha k m unse milne kyu nhi aarhi thi tab mene unhe btaya k mere fufaaji n zeher kha liya tha to m issliye nhi aarhi thi to unhone mujhe data k hum dono ek dusre s pyar karte h dost bhi h to mujhse ye baate kyu chupai wo naraj ho gye tbhi mene bola aj k baad ap s kuch nhi chupaungi m or wo hum dono ek dusre ko har baat btane lage phi hum 4 bje apne apne ghar waps aa gye ab m apni story baad m likhungi bye frnds apna dard phir baatne aaungi ap sab s bye  

hello firnds aj m apni story phir likh rhi hu apna dard ap sab s baatne aai hu phir ateek or mapne ghar chahle gye or phir hum dono 3-4 mahine tak phone p baate ki 4 mahine m hum phir mile whi apni firnd k ghar k paas wale park m uss din humne kuch jyada der tak baate ki time bitaya phir hum dono apne ghar aagye iss trha s hum dono 3-4 mahine phir mile lekin iss baar unhone meri firnd k ghar k pass wale park m jaane s mna kar diya bole hum khi or jayenge to mene ha kaedi phir wo mujhe lene aae or wo mujhe apne ek dost k ghar lekar gye ptel nagar k pass unke dost ka ghar h hum dono wha gye or hum dono uss kamre m akele the mujhe to dar lagne lga k mujhe yha kyu laye h mene pucha k hum yha kyu aaye h to unhone kha k m tumhare saath kuch der akele m rehna chahta hu lekin mujhe kya maalum tha k akele m unhone apni hade paar kardi mene unhe bohot roka k ye sab galt h paap h to unhone kha k mujh p turst karo hum dono ek dusre s bohot pyar karte h ye sab koi paap nhi koi galat nhi or kha k m tum s saahdi karunga m bhi tumhaare bger nhi ji sakta or wo sab humaare bich huaa jo har ladki isske liye so baar shochegi mene bhi isske liye mna kiya tha par jab wo mujhse naraj ho gye to phir m unhe rok na saki kyuki m unse apne ap s bhi jyada pyar karti hu or phir hum ghar aa gye dono 5 bje wo mujhe lene or ghar chodne aate the phir hum 3-4 mhine tak nhi mile bas ph pe hi baate ki phir jab hum mile dobara to mujhe ateek n btaya k unhone apne ghar m humaari saadi ki baat ki h! unhone to me ye jaankar bohot khush hui or phir hum ptel nagar m jo park h wha gye or humne khub saari baate ki me ye nhi janni thi ki wo muslim ye baat unhone mujhe jab hum pehli baar park m mile the tbhi bta di thi wo jaante the k m birahman pariwaar s hu lekin kehte h k pyar kabhi jaat dharm dekh k nhi kiya jata hum phir apne ghar aagye phir iss tarha s hume milte milte 6 mahine ho gye the jab phir milne ko unhone mujhe kha to mene mna kar diye kyuki meri mummy ko m baar baar apni firnd k ghar jane k liye bolti to unhone mna kar diya ki tu to har baar wha jati h teri firnd kabhi nhi aati or mummy n bola k ab tune wha jane k naam liya to pitegi ab issliye mene ateek ko mna kar diya tha or phir wo bhi mujhse naraj ho gye phir mene unhe sab btaya k mummy n mna kar diya h to hum kuch dino tak or abhi nhi mil sakte to unhone meri majburi ko samjha m unse jaldi jaldi issliye nhi mil sakti thi kyuki m uss wakht 11th k exm diye the opne s uss time m computer shikhna chahti thi par mere papa mujhe pese nhi dete or kehte k tu kabhi kuch nhi kar sakti pehle m padhai m bohot achi thi lekin jab bhi mere exam aate to mere ghar m ldaai jhagde maar pit suru ho jaati issi k chalte mene or meri pdhai din p din khrab hoti gai or me computer sikhna chahti thi to phir mene ateek ko btaya ke m computer sikhna chahti hu or mere papa wo usske liye mna kar rhe h k tu kuch nhi kar sakti h or mujhe bolte k usse sikhne k liye ful english aani cahiye jo tujhe nhi aati tab mene sab unhe btaya to ateek ne mujhe bola k esa kuch nhi h wo apne upar dipend hota h agar tumhaare man m h k tum ye computer sikh sakti ho to jarur sikhogi phir mene kuch choti class k bacho ko pdahaya or addmistion liya inst m kuch mahine humaare uhi bite ek dusre s mile bina hi phir hum dubara mile phir s wo mujhe apne kisi dost k ghar lekar gye or unko to whi sab karna tha mene mna kiya or kha k m aj k baad ap s kabhi milne nhi aaungi to wo bolne lage ki kya tum mujhse pyar nhi karti m kya kartime unse shche man s pyar karti hu m unhe dukhi nhi kar sakti thi ! issliye phir whi sab humaare bich huaa or phir jab hum apne ghar aagye to mera mann bohot udash or dukhi ho gya m samjh nhi pa rhi thi k m kya karu m unse bohot pyar karti hu issliye m unhe dukhi nhi kar sakti thi phir mene computer sikhna suru kar diya tha or mene unhe btaya to wo bohot khush hue me or ateek kuch mahino tak nhi mile or wo mujhe milne k liye kehte lekin mujhe dar lagta tha ghar walo k apne k kbhi pta lag gya to maar dalenge hume to m milne na ja saki unse or phir ramjaan bhi suru hone wale the unhe goa bhi jana tha unki mosi ka oppretion hone wala tha to unhe wha jana tha phir hum na mil sakenge na baat kar sakenge ek mahine tak wo ek mahine k liye jab mujhe goa jane ka btaya to meri to jese jaan hi niklne wali thi tabhi wo mujhe milne k liye bol rhe the par m majbur thi unse mil na saki or mene mna kar diya kyuki mummy nhi jane de rhi thi mujhe apni firnd k or wo chale gye goa ek mahine k liye mujhse bohot naraj the par mene puri kosish ki ke wo mujhse naraj n ho lekin ateek to gusse wale or ziddi jyada h to mene bola jab ap wapish aajaoge tab hum milenge or wo aakhri baar humne ph p baat ki unke goa jane s pehle phir humne ek mahine tak ek dusre s baat nhi ki wo ek mahine m jaanti hu ek ek din ek saal k brabar lagta tha wo ek mahine hummare mano jese kai janmo k brabar caate humne jab wo aane wale the tbhi unhone mujhe phone kiya or btaya k wo 2-4 din m wapahs aane wale h to m unhe usi din ph karu lekin mene unke delhi wapash aane par phone nhi kiya 3-4 dino tak or jab mene baad m unhe ph kiya to mujhe gusse m bole k yaad aagai ap ko meri itne dino tak mujhe ph kyu nhi kiya mene pta nhi mera man esaa kyu keh rha tha k m unse hamesha k liye dur ho jau or mene ye baat unhe nhi btai lekin unhe najane esa kyu lga k m badal rhi hu ab m unse thik s baat bhi nhi karti m nhi jaanti ki esa kyu ho rha tha kya kaaran tha pta nhi ek din unhone mujhse puch hi liya k tum pehle s badal rhi ho kyu mujhse pyar nhi h kya ab tum ko unhone mujhe apni kasam di k btao kya kaaran h to mene kha kuch nhi h koi baat n! hi h bas tabiyat thik nhi h mene ye keh kar mene baat ko tala or bole ab to kitne mahine ho gye h milne nhi ana kya to phir hum mile lekin iss baar hum kuch der tak park m bethe or 12bje k baad wo mujhe apne ek sabse ache best firnd k office ghumane lekar gye or unka dost bhi mjhe dekhna chahta tha hum jese hi unke dost k pass gye to wo mujhe kuch der tak dekhte hi rhe par humne unke dost s baat nhi ki or hum kuch der k baad hum apne ghar wapis aagye or phir hum 3-4 mahine m milte the kyuki jaldi m nhi mil sakti thi iss tarha s hum dono ek dusre s ek saal tak issi tarha mile phir mere computer class bhi kuch dino k baad khtam hone waali thi to m ye shohne lagi k ab hum kese milenge phir mene jab mujhe computer ache s aane lga to mene dusre inst m training ki or uss inst me computer sikhana suru kar diya phir hume milne m koi problam nhi hui or hum iss tarha s 3-4 mahine ki bjaye hum har mahine milne lage or hum 17 mahino tak issi tarha sek dusre s uhi milte rhe iss bich jab ateek mujhe ek baar apne us dost k ghar le kar gye jo mujhe man hi man pyar karta tha usse mera ateek ka milna usse jese bardash nhi tha or wo mujhe ussi k ghar lekar gye ek baar me jab ateek ko kehti k aj hum kahi park m jayenge to wo koi na koi bhana bna dete the or phir m kuch mahine tak unse mili nhi wo mujhe milne k liye bolte mene mna kar diya to puchne lage ki kyu milne nhi aarhi ho to mene kha ap har baar mujhe kisi na kisi dost k ghar le jate ho mujhe achaha nhi lagta or ap wo sab karte ho jo shaadi s pehle galt h paap h ap shaadi to karte nhi or ye sab karte ho jo galat h to kehne lage ki m tumse dur nhi rehna chahata kyuki jab m tumse milne aau to bas tumhare bohot karib rhu dur na rahu essa kya mereliye galt h mera pyar tumhare liye koi maene nhi rakta kya bolo to m kya kehti me unsse scahce man s pyar karti hu or shaadi ki baat ki to kha k mene apne ghar m apni shaadi ki baat ki to meri mummy n mujhe dhamki di ki agr tu uss ladki s shaadi karega to me zeher kha lungi ye baat unhone mujhe btai to m bohot dukhi ho gai or phir mene! unhe kh a k mujhe mere ghar chod aao or phir m apne ghar aagai or kuch dino tak mere man m ye saval rha k ab hum alag ho jayenge kyuki unke ghar wale to saadi k liye mna kar rhe h or mene unse kuch dino tak mene unse baat nhi ki or phir unka phone aaya k kya baat h tum ab baat bhi nhi karti kyu m kya bolti phir mene kha k kya hamari shaadi nhi hogi to bole ki agar shaadi nhi hui to kya hammara pyar itna hi tha jo ek rishte k na judne s jo hamare dil m ek dusre k liye pyar h wo sab khtam ho jayega kya hammara pyar itna kamjor hogya h ab bolo phir mene kuch der tak shocha k nhi mera pyar kamjor nhi h me ap s apne ap s bhi jyada vishvaas or sabse jyada pyar karti hu me ap k bina nhi reh sakti tabhi s hum dono me pyar or jyada bhadh gya wo mujhe kisi or k saath bardas nhi kar sakte phir hum mile dubara iss baar hum park m mile patel nagar k park m or ussi k baare m baate karte rhe ab m apni story phir likhungi ap sab s apna dard baatne phir aaugni or phi btaungi k aage mujhe kesa dhokha dard mila itna pyar karne p itna jyada kisi p vishvaash karne p bye firnds m phir aaungi ap s baat karne bye………………………………. aapki arpita……..