I’m confused

Hello guys, mera naam jannat hai. I’m frm a town. Bat us time ki h jb me 9th m pdhti thi mere sath coaching me bahut sare students the unme ek ajay naam ka bnda tha,me kisi ladke s baat n krti thi mujhe pasand n tha.meri best frnd thi vo us s bat krti thi.wqt niklta gya hmne 11th m dusre clg m admission liya vo ladka usi m pdhta tha,to daily clg aur coaching m milta tha bt me kbi dhyan n deti thi us p.phr 12th k exam chl rhe the tb meri best frnd k threw hmari bat huyi.nrmly hm logo n bat ki phr kuc prblm ho gyi thi jiski wjh s hme no. Lena pda ek dusre ka..hm bahut km bat krte the.exams k bd me apni nani k yha chli gyi b.com krne cell phone ma ka tha to ghr p hi chhod diya.wha jane k bad ajay s koi contact n rha phr summer vacations ayi me apne ghr ayi.

Ek din me aur ma bethkr bat kr rhe the achanak s ma k phne ki ring bji,mene rcve kiya hello bola to phne p ajay the.ma k pas hone ki wjah s mene wrong no. Keh k cut kr diya. Phr ma k jane k bd mene usi no. P cl krke pucha k tumne cl kyu ki?to kehte h aise hi,phr mene kaha ab mt krna me nani k yha jakr s.t.d s bat kr lungi. Vacations khtm hone k bd me nani k ghr gyi phr agle hi ajay s s.t.d s bat ki,phr ajay n kaha ab kb krogi mene kaha pta ni,phr m aksar s.t.d s ajay ko cl kr leti thi,kuc din bad mujhe cell b mil gaya to mene ajay ko apna no. De diya vo bahut khush huye.phr hm log bat krne lage dheere dheere hm log bahut bat krne lage ajay sare din office m msg s bat krte agr time milta jb boss n hota to cl b,phr rat ko phne p bat krte. Aise hi 2 sal guzar gaye ajay mera bahut dhyan rkhte the aur me b,hm log bahut ache frnds ban gaye.decembr ki bat h.

Ek din meri frnd ka cl aya tb me us s bat kr rhi thi ek ldka tha jo sath pdha tha uske bare m kuc bta ri thi ajay tb confrence me the to sb sun rahe the to us ldke m bard m jb mene bat ki to ajay n cl ct kr di,phr apni frnd s bat krne k bd mene ajay ko cl krke pucha kyu cut ki call..tb unhone kuc n btaya aur rote huye kehte hai me tujhe bahut pyar krta hu ye b janta hu ki tu n krti par me tujhse bahut pyar krta hu:-(itna sunkr mujhe kuc smjh n aya aur mene phne kat diya. Phr me bahut royi pta n kyu? Phr ajay ko cal krke kaha aj k bad mujhse kbi bat mt krna me to tumhe ek bahut acha dost manti hu aisa kbi socha tk n etc. Phr ajay n kafi cl ki aur mene hr br yahi kaha k mujhe cl mt kro.phr ajay n ki. Mene b dcsn liya k me ab bat n krungi.par pta n kyu mujhe bahut rona aa rha tha aur me jindgi me pehli br itna royi me y ni chahti thi k ajay s bat krna bnd kru bt ajay n jo kaha uske bd mujhe yahi thk lga. 2,3 din yuhi nikal gaye ajay cl krte bt m rcve n krti phr mujh p raha n gya bat kiye bina to ajay n jb cal ki tb mene kaha ki hm ek frnd ki trh rhenge is bare me tum kbi koi bat n kroge.ajay n mujhse promiss kiya. Phr hm aise hi bat krne lge.pta h ajay 4 din bd hi apna promiss bhul gaye bat bat par i lv u bol dete me kuc kehti is s pehle kehte m mjak kr rha tu seriously mt liya kr.phr 1,2 mahine aise nikal gye,phr ajay mujhse b i lv u 2 bolne ko kehte par me n kehti thi.ajay s kb itna attachment ho gaya pta hi n chla.i lv u,lv u 2 bolna nrml ho gaya,jb ajay kehte to bahut acha lgta,

Phir january m ek din bat krte krte mene b bol diya..ajay bahut khush huye.(meri sari frnds ajay ko janti thi jo nani k yha thi ajay ek br aye the kam s tb hm sb mile the tb s,sb kehti thi k y tujhe bahut pyar krte h,aur inki bahut tareef krti thi,ab b krti h)..phr hm log bate krte bahut sari ajay month me 2 br milne b ate.hm dono bahut khush the, hm dono sare din me 100 s ovr msgs krte aur bahut sari bate krte.ajay mera bahut dhyan rkhte ek chote bche ki trh..agr meri jra b tbiyt khrab hoti ajay bahut jyada pareshan ho jate..mera kisi ladke s jra b bat krna unhe pasand n h,aur mujhe b. Vo mere b’day par hmesha mere sath hote the aur hm sb frnds k sath enjoy krte. Bt ab last 20 nov. S ajay ko pta n kya ho gaya h?vo itna daat te h mujhe hr bat p, ignore b krte h pehle msg ka reply turant krte the bt ab 2,2 ghnte bad, bat b bahut km krte h,3 mahine s milne b n aye mene itna bulaya phr b,n to pehle bina bulaye ate the. Mujhe smjh n ata ab vo kya chahte hai?hmari hr roj ldayi hoti h ab kisi na kisi bat p, 5,6 din tk bat b n hoti, me pareshan ho chuki hu ro ro kr.par smjh n pati y chahte kya h,jb man hota h to reply kr dnge n to ghnto bd.jhuth b bolte h mujhse.me unke ghr par unki puri family s bat kr leti hu to unse pta chlta h. Ab b hmari 8 din s ldayi h.me kya kru?plz tell me hm 5 sal 6 mahine s sath h, me ajay k bina reh n skti bt unka itna rude behaviour brdaast b n hota.