Fake love or true love

Hii frnds mra nam dolly h aj m apko apni story share krne ja rhi hu plz mujhe hlp kijiyega ye smjhne m ki so ldka mre s true love krta tha ya fake love kyuki mujhe smjh m ni aara h or m bar bar hope liye baithi hu jisse hurt sirf mko ho ra h..m bchpn s apne mama yha rhti hu mko kisi chiz ka rok tok ni h m free hu unlg mko glt prvaris b ni diye h jaise apne bcche ko rkhe h waisi hi mko b rkhe h mra ek frnd thA hmlg jb 8 sal k the tb s bstfrnd the yha tk ki m usko rakhi b bandhi hu 13 sal tk jb m 5th class m thi hmlg ghr chng kr diye fr b hmlg frnd bne rhe wo b ghr aata tha or m b jati thi hmara attchmnt bht zyda ho gya tha jb m khi bahr jati wo bht rota tha

fr jb m 10th class m aayi to hm dono ko ye lga ki sayd hm dono ek dusre ko like krte h fr dono shr b kiye ek dusre s ye glt tha pr ustym dimak b ni tha kya shi h kya glt fr sb thk chl ra tha tb uske papa ki frnd ki beti uski bhn bn gyi or hm dono relationship m aagye the ab wo usko b waisa hi time dta jaise mko dta tha usse b waise hi bat krta jaise mko krta tha fr mko gussa aane lga ye sb dkh k fr sb bolne b lg gye ki hmlg usko yha dkhe or wo jb uske sth rhta tha tb mre s jhut bolta tha ki m soya tha jbki wo ghumne jata tha fr m sochi ki bhn h sb glt bol rhe honge fr m b chat pdhi or ek din hm dono ka jhgda hua to wo bola tu mre or mri bhn s dur rha kr fr m usko chhor di hmara relation tkriban dedh sal chla or uska accident 22 sep ko hua tha uska bst frnd tha avinash dono ka sth m accidnt hua tha us time b wo sbse phle preeti jisko wo bhn bolta tha usko call kiya fr jb m hospitl gyi to dkhi uska pair tut gya tha fr wo bolne lga ki ab tu mre s dur rhna m tre liye prfct ni hu m boli b ki m tre sth hu pair hi tuta h thk ho jayga pr us time wo ni mana 1 sal ho chuka tha fr b m wait kr ri thi uska..uska jo bstfrnd tha wo mko msg kiya m unse bat ki unko sb btayi wo thode emotionl typ k ya emotional blckmail krne wale insan the hmara bat chit bdhta gya fr wo mko prapose mara m 1 mhine tb talti gyi

fr 1 din maine b ha kr diya aftr 12th maine  m fr s relationship m aayi then hm bht khus rhte the m avii s bht zyda pyar krti thi wo b mre s bht pyar krte the bt inko gussa bht jldi aata tha jb b kuch hota to m hi mnati thi 8 mhine m avi k sth open relationship m rhii mre mama or papa k chhor sbko hmare bare m pta tha ghr m unke ghr m ek bap papa dkhe the sth m or unke bhai ko pta tha mra jo ex tha wo try to krta tha mre s bat krne ka bt m ni bat krna chahti thi usse taki mra ab ka relationship khrab na ho sb thk tha hm khi b jate sth m jate thr ghumte the der rat tk bat krna fr mra tbyt khrab ho gya or m ghr s zyda nikl ni pati thi m nursing k exam ka tyari krti ghr m hi taki m bahr ja k pdh saku wo b whi admission le liye jha m jana chahti thi fr nov. M mra class start hua hm dono drte the ek dusre ko khone s bht zyda m unke bina jine ka soch b ni skti thi wo gussa b jate the mra jaan nikl jata tha jane s 1 din phle hmlg ghumne gye fr mndir m wo mre s sadi kr liye riti riwaz s to ni pr ho hi gya  fr m b bahr chli gyi pdhne fr m hostl m rhti thi jha na to bahr niklna allow tha na hi phone rkhna fr b m chhupa k inse bat krne k liye phone rkhi huii thi mre frnds ki pta tha to kbi kbi wo lg apne bf s bat kr lte the mri glti ye thi ki m ek bhaiya ko apna tbyt ka hall bta di ye gussa ho gye fr 10 din s zyda hua ye bat ni krte the fr m rone lgii call krti call atnd ni krte blck kr diye the fr dono jhgda hua bht zyda msg m hi

fr ek din mri frnd boli ki tu tre ex s bat kr wo jlega to bat krga m bat ni krna chahti usse fr m fb p id bnayi jisme mra ex mre s apne bhai ki id s bat krne lga mujhe ni pta tha ki wo rahul ni mra ex h yha pe mri glti thi mujhe ni bat krna tha usse m apni glti mani fr sorry b bola bt avii ne mko chhor diya fr jaise taise 1 mhine hua m roz call krti bt call atnd ni krte the fr b bich bich m ldai ho jata tha m utne m hi khus rhti thi mra jo ex tha wo mre ghr aana jana krta tha ab m ghr aagyi to wo ghr aya hmara bat hua wo bola m aj b tre s utna hi pyar krta hu pr m to avii s pyar krti thi m usse bol di ki m tre sth relationship m to ni rh skti bt agr as a frnd rhga to m bat kr lungi m usse zyda bat krna psnd ni krti thi bt wo anytime call krta msg krta kbi kbi to m apne frnds s jhut bolwa dti thi fr wo mre frnds ka no. Leke unse bat krta to unki b frndship ho gyi ab isme mri kya glti thi ki unlg bat krte h ab ghumne jane ka plan bna m bht zyda mna ki bt jana pda fr avii s mre brkup ko 10 mhine ho chuke the m fr b uska wait kr rhi thi ki kbi to aaynge wo waps is bich ab mre ex s bat hota ghr aati to ghr k log uske sth khi na khi bhj dte the kam s mko na chahte hue b jana pdta tha or wo sayd avii ko ye dikhana chahta tha ki m uske sth relation m hu fr jb avii mre life m waps aaye maine unko bola ap ek bar mko chhor chuke ho is bar kaise trst kr lu unke dost b unko mre khilaf bhdka diye the ki m uske sth relation m hu m apne sgge bhai k sth jati to b log mko glt bol dte the smjh m ni aata h kyu

fr m avii ko boli ki agr ap mko accpt kr rhe ho to sb k sth kro kyuki m uske  sth relationship m to ni hu ksii k sth fr wo choice rkhe ki wo ya m ab m inse pyar krti thi to inko hi chunungi na ab fr s hmare bich sb thk ho gya ldai b hote the bar bar mko smjh ni aata tha ki unkown no. S call mko hi kyu aata tha bt wo to mra ex krwata tha aug ka time tha jis tym mra or avii ka brkup hua tha usii time ka bat tha mri frnd mre ghr aayi huii thi wo boli ki photoshoot p chlte h m man gyi bt mra srt tha ki m pic click ni krwaungi or usdin mre ghr walo ko b bahr jana tha to ghr jldi bula rhe the bt mra jo ex tha wo mre gadi ka key lke jbrdstii kuch coupls wale pic le liye(jaise hath pkd k pic lna kndhe m hath rkh k pic lna) or usko fb p upload b kr diya ab itne m mri mami wo pic dkh k mko dati mujhe to pta hi ni tha kyuki m apni id deactivate kr chuki thi fr bht bolne p wo pic htaya m usse bat krna bnd kr chuki thi avii k aane k bad ab m or avii bht khus the apne life m..m hmare relation ko bchane k liye kuch b kr skti thi

ab hmara relation bht aage bdh chuka tHa m unse mentally or physicaly attched thi 6 mhine sb acche chla fr pta ni unko kon kya bola wo fr bat krna bnd kr diye or kuch btate b ni the ab mummy ko ye bat pta chla to mummy b dati mko ki bar bar aisa krta tha fr b tu roti h uske liye fr ek 2 mhine bad wo mko btya ki mra ex usko ustym ka pic bhja tha or uske kuch dost ye bol diye the ki m usko doubl cross kr rhi hu 18 feb wo fr s sadi kiya mre s mre frnds k samne ek to m kbii apne ghr walo s dur rhi ni thi wha mko prblm tha fr b m bahr thi taki m unko khus rkh sku bahr b m unhi k wjh s gyi thi apne ghr walo k against ja k gyi thi ab..sb sun k gussa to aata tha or fr jb m apne ex s bat hi ni ki thi to sb bole to m gusse m usse bat krna start kr di or is bar ksii k bolne s mko frk ni pdta tha jb m glti ni ki thi tb sb bolte the ab m jan bujh k bat krna suru kr di 2 mhine bat krne k bad m ex s bat krna bnd kr di kyuki mko pta chla jo ho ra h isii k wjh s ho ra h 2nd tym ka mttr or m uske sth physically involv ni thi fr b ye bol diya tha ki m uske sth physical relationship m thi.. smjh to kuch b ni Ata tha ki kya ho ra h kyu ho ra h m 2 bar ns kat chuki thi kyuki m uske bina rh ni pati thi nind ki dwaii kha dti kuch ho to waps aaye mre pass

fr mre bday k 1 din bad wo mre s bat kiya fr 1 mhine tk bat hua hmara m sb clr krne ki kosis krti wo fr bat krna bnd kr diya fr 1 din msg kiya ki m kisi or bat krta hu or wo mra sb bat manti h m boli jaise b rho khus rho m apne apko sbse alg kr di 2nd tym bht muskil tha smhalna na family wale sth the or na hi koii frnd sth tha roz roti thi rat bhr or khud ko smjhane ki kosiis b krti thi or aj b hope h ki wo waps aaynge..mko pta h ki mko apne ex s bat ni krna chahiye tha mri glti wha thi bt avii agr mko chhor k jane k bjaye mra sth dte mre p trst krte to m kbii usse bat ni krti..ye mri story thi jha m khud hi glti krti thi or apne favour m kuch sabit ni kr payi ki m glt ni hu..ajib h mri story pr plz biba smjhe judge mt krna mko kuch kuch bate maine shr ni ki h..aj 6 mhine hi gye wait krte m social ntwrking side s bilkul htt chuki hu sayd koii to mko smjhe ki m glt ni thi kyuki life m kisi ki jgh koii ni le skta agr mra pyar true tha to m kbii unko chhor k ni jati unko hmesa lga ki m unko dhokha dii jha mri glti thi m wha man k jhuki b pr hmesa m hi apne slfrespct ko bhulke sb kuch kyu shu..agr hm kisi s pyar krte h to trst kyu ni kr skte uspe maine b to unko unke past k sth apnaya tha wo mko itna sara jhut bole fr b m unke sth thi hmesa trst krti aayi unpe unke bare m bht sare bat sune fr b unko ni chhori fr wo mko true love k nam pe dhokha kyu dte aaya..usne mujhse kha ki usko cancer m nursing isiliye kr ri thi ki in future unko kuch ho to m khud unka trtmnt kr sku maine apne life k 2 sal usko diye usne mujhe chhorte wqt ye kha ki maine apne life 2 sal tre piche wSte kr diya..mre ghr walo ne mko kbii bda ni hone diya hmesa bcche jaise trt kiya to wo to smjha skta tha na mko jha m glt thi wha mri glti sudhar k mra sth de skta tha aj na m kisi s bat ni krti to log kyu ni bolte ki wo to kisi s bat ni krti kisi s ni milti glt chije kyu phle nikl jati h kyu kisi ko bina jane jugde kr lte h..kyu true love k nam pe kisi ka life brbad kr dte h m aj ksii p trst ni kr pati kisi s frndship ni kr pati mre payr ne b dhokha diya jisko frnd mana usne b dhokha diya family b sth ni di jb mko unki jarurt thi..sayd m glt thi pyar hota hi ni h ab..sb khlte h ek dusre s